When I was a kid I thought adults had it figured out.

You grow up, you get the job, you do the thing. Life happens somewhere in there.

Then I became an adult and realized... no. Most people are just keeping it together. Trying not to think too hard about whether this is it.

I didn't want that. I still don't.

So I build stuff. I help people figure out how to leave the country. The insurance, the logistics, the stuff nobody wants to think about but everyone needs before they can actually go.

It's not glamorous. But someone comments “I thought this was just for trust funders until I made it happen myself” and that's... I don't know. That's real.

I live in Mexico. I'm flying to Thailand next month. Then Brazil. I run everything from my laptop. Airports. Cafes. My girlfriend's couch. Whatever.

And I'm broke.

Like, actually broke. Not “investor money running low” broke. Just... the math doesn't work yet. I'm betting it will. I have to bet it will.

Nobody talks about that part. You see the photos. The flights. The freedom. You don't see the part where you're not sure how next month works.

I'm telling you because I don't know how else to explain why I'm doing this.

I fly hot air balloons.

I can't steer them. You go where the wind goes. You can't optimize it. You can't scale it. There's no business model.

It's the most useless thing I do.

And I can't stop.

When I'm up there, my brain goes quiet. Which never happens. I'm always building the next thing, chasing the next thing. That's just how I am. Probably always will be.

But up there... I just look. I look at the world with wonder. Like I used to when I was a kid. Before everything became a problem to solve.

I don't have some big insight about that. I just need it.

I need that look in people's eyes when they see what I see. A world that's worth wondering about.

So I keep doing it.

If you want to watch someone build a life that doesn't make sense, I'll be here.

I'm not asking you to follow me.

I'm asking what you'd do if you stopped waiting.